grae braum,
I can't get your story out of my mind. What a tragic loss. I lost 2 babies back in the 70's from miscarriage. My 1st one was a boy and I held him in my hands for awhile. I still dream of him and think of him, he would have been about 36 years old. I could not even comprehend what your loss could be like. Life just doesn't seem fair when there are so many people who do not want their children than things like this happen to you who, I'm sure loved uncondionally.
My ears are here for you if you feel like talking.
sunnydaze