Hmm, Spirit. The here and now, eh? I am fortunate to know what living in the moment, being comfortable in that moment and in my own skin, and being in awe and wonder of it feels like. It is good.
Only recently can I say that I have experienced anything close to what you describe.
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I have not been here, not connected to me and what is around me...had that 'alone' feeling for so long - I was way off somewhere else, totally disconnected from me and my surroundings.
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Disconnected from myself lately, yes. The here-and-now Self I once was has yet to fully return. Right now I don't like the here and now. It is far from perfect and I find it far too unacceptable to be present in it. I am not sure, but perhaps connecting with my recent work experiences will help change that. In other words, I am only beginning to connect thoughts and feelings with events. At least, I hope this will help. I miss my life and who I was before this all started. I miss the peace and joy of being in the present moment. Maybe it just depends on where we are at in our recovery when it come to living in the here and now.
I am excited for you in your new discovery. It is cool, isn't it? Enjoy it. Hopefully soon, I and others here will be there too.