I'm sorry too. My own doggy is old now (I've had her for twelve years) and I am dreading the day she is too old. I take her to the vet for every little thing worrying aout her health. So far so good but our time together is getting shorter and knowing that fills me with grief. So I get what your going through and empathize with you. Hang in there nugget. Maybe eventually you will be able to cry for him.

Take care, Morgan