Spirit - thanks for identifying with me. My shell is empty.

As far as defining ourselves. That is where I am at. Sometimes I feel I don't really know who I am. Other times I have a sense of who I am but not a whole picture.

Most the time I feel like a cue ball playing bumper cars just reacting to life as it hits me. But no over all plan or path. I get so wrapped up in daily living (survival) in a positive way that I loose sight of the big picture often.

Part of the reason I think I don't develop a plan is because all I am is my work. I have tried to pick up hobbies over the last two years to distract me from my work and to give me something else to focus on. I have been a little successful.

I find it frustrating regularly to try and get it all together so all the pieces have a flow and are not disjointed occurences. Still working on it. I always wonder if this is so hard for just us or does everyone go through these struggles?

I guess it doesn't matter either way because it is what it is for me.