Hi mikeb,

I think if you just read around on the forum you will see that there are lots of reflections concerning how you feel. I used to feel trapped in my head, a prisoner of all my thoughts and fears. Feeling like an outsider looking in, feeling disconnected from the world and myself, feeling confused over what was a rational thougth and what was not, feeling hurt, rejected and like a 'missfit', feeling afraid, edgy, scared, undeserving of anything good, incomplete. However, I am on the road to recovery and I understand where all of these feelings came from, why I have felt the way I did and do and how the whole package of trauma and PTSD have affected my life.

As for others' understaning PTSD who have not expereinced it, yes that is diificult. If the people who love you care, then they can research it to try to grasp an understanding, and the rest don't really matter, do they?

I guess my way forward through PTSD hell is to try to understand myself first, that is the most important person you have in your life? But, yes I can totally empathise with your statement!

Best wishes

Spirit x