I wish I could explain it better. I have recently tried to explain it to one of my friends with no luck at all.
Very hard for someone to undertand as well. My mind can be such a mess at times that I do not really understand. So cannot really expect somebody else to understand.
It used to stress me out alot trying to understand what was happining to me. Now I go with the flow and dont question everything that I do or feel that is out of the norm.