Thanks everyone for the uplifts

I feel a bit better...anxiety still quite severe, especially if the kids are anywhere near the building and if my husband isn't home. The whole mess has triggered some old, old reactions and memories; this hasn't happened for a long time.

Sunnydaze, your post stopped my heart for a moment...what a horrible shock to go through.

One of my fears re: these kids is that someday, someone's going to pull out a gun. I am just doing a lot of reality testing, and making sure my security needs are taken care of.

I'm mostly exhausted and shaky...but this too shall pass...