I just read a thread on here that reminded me of something I wanted to talk to my T about.

My latest and most bleakest moments were accompanied by excessive spending and purchasing. I am in no way a materialistic person and I live a simplistic life.

In reflection I feel it was another way to dissociate from the pain I was in. A way to try to feel normal, perhaps? I understand that there were other complex dynamics going on, but I feel that doing this at the time was in an attempt to distance myself from what I was feeling. (it didn't work, obviously)........I have experienced many other things that I also feel were an attempt to block out what I was not wanting to deal with!

What have you done? And how did it affect you?

Spirit x