Yeah that would be one way of phrasing it. During those days that was a pattern. I still have some of those activities, but I don't believe I obsess over these things.
for example:
I still enjoy playing music, and I will probably play up to an hr a day. If I have the day off, I might even play for a couple of hrs. And I still get into it.
Back in the old days, you could almost label that as my total identity as a person. If I was not playing, often throughout the day my mind would be racing, consumed, and just fixated on how I could play a song better, or even build a better instrument.
I never thought of this as unhealthy or distorted, because it brought me happiness to be that way.
Some might ask if I have really changed, because I still enjoy some of the same activities. It comes down to discernment and balance. I still enjoy this, but it is not who I am, and there is balance in my life. At least more than there once was.
Besides, what are we supposed to do? Sit around and watch TV all day. ( I've been known to do this ) |