That is a difficult one!
I do hope you will be okay? You have addressesed your boundaries and that is positive for you and her. She may have her breakthrough now? If she is ready? I hope she realises that it is more than likely the consequences of her behaviour that have lead to this?
I feel a bit angry! Angry about how trauma causes so many issues - too many broken hearts, too many casualties...........It's a tough old road!
You tried to love her unbroken and that is a wonderful gift!
I will be sad to see you go!

But, I am happy to have shared some of your journey ;-)
Spirit x