Well, I don't hate her, and part of me still loves her for who she is inside, but she hasn't been that person for a while now. I realize that her PTSD is a big part of it, but there never seems to be a good time to talk about how I feel because she gets upset whenever things aren't in her favor.

The source of a lot of our recent problems is that we make plans and they always get changed multiple times because of one thing or another, and she expects me to be okay with that every time. Most of the time it's hours, but sometimes it's days, and it gets old. If I say something she throws the whole "you obviously don't understand what I'm going through" routine at me. I'm very much aware of what she's going through, but at what point can I voice my feelings about it without getting chastized for it?

One day she wanted me to be at her house at 4, I got there at 4:05 and she wasn't there, when I called her, she complained that I was late. Another time I got there 5 minutes early, and thought to myself, "watch her complain about me being early". Sure enough, she gave me grief for being early. I started to feel like I just can't win with her...and if I say something she always says, "I was just kidding".

Yes, I felt a very strong connection with her as we shared so much in common. I just don't think she's been very fair to me.