Maybe this all does go back to loving myself, I am working on that now, my new mantra is " be kind to yourself, love yourself" that has overtaken my negative thoughts which is a HUGE win! I don't know if I can make everything right but I just want to feel like those regrets don't hold as much power as they used to. They are all about the past, I can't fix them now but I need to let them go, maybe I should wirte them out, pray about them and burn the paper to signify letting go of the past regrets.