Thats a good idea, Ill see if there's a book or something, ask T.

I think I'm the one who should have seen it coming therefore it's all my fault. I did nothing to prevent the things that happened, I didnt see it coming, but had some warning signs. I did'nt know it would escalate to the extreme it did.

Yeah, last week my T had me read to her what happened and it sucked bad. She does know I feel guilty/responsible for what happened. She tried to tell me how I was'nt, but I did'nt listen very well. I think somewhere deep in me I know there was nothing I could do, but don't accept it. I don't think I could have done anything diffrently but be more aware or looke more closely at things - but there's no way I could have known. Can't accept it though.

Thanks for the posts