Dear monkee, I am very tired too. I understand your position with your mother. Earlier this week I tried to talk to my mom about my situation, but I just couldn't go through with it because I'm afraid if she knows how profoundly her absence in my life affected me, it will hurt her too much. I also no longer speak to any of my other family members. I've found that removing negative people from my life is the best thing for me, even if it's family. I wish you the best of luck in healing from your past, and I hope you pass your driving test!