Hi Wayne
If I may be so bold as to ask this question, I am going to ask it anyway.

I seem to sense an underlying hint of ?guilt? Do you feel like a faker or a fraud?

I ask this because when I was diagnosed and put into therapy I had serious issues with
thinking that I was not really messed up. That I had just faked my way into this. The
guilt was a heavy weight to carry. Even today I sometimes feel like a faker.

I hope that the military people here can help you resolve your confusion and pain. I know that I have been helped very much by sharing. Welcome