Hey Kay... I think its alright if we talk and talk on here, as even Kerrie-Ann doesn't mind me doing that, as she knows it a positive thing for me. Well, you answered exactly what it was about creating this place for me already, in that just chatting with others who have PTSD, it helps. I knew this from before I had PTSD, as previously explained through talking to those who were their with me, and then the course had the same result. Even though we where all nervous at first, once we opened our mouths, we all just clicked, and got along like a house on fire. This was all too much of a coincidence for me, thus creating this place which I was sure would have the same effect. No more coincidence... point proven, which is fantastic.

I know we can all help each other. Evelyn is a great counsellor, and soon to be qualified social worker also, and has helped me a great deal during the course. Actually, she helped everyone on the course quite significantly, without probably realising it. Just her being in each lesson and project, had shown her ability as a professional, but more she became one of the group. She was the extra member...

My wifes just going, "she gave away the cat!"... that she can't get over. Kerrie-Ann is a vivid animal lover, and couldn't give an animal away... nor take someone else giving it away. I don't think she's impressed with your mum giving it away either... just quietly!!! Socrates, that is a cool name for a cat...

And you just answered your own thoughts... well done:

I do exactly the same, expecially when thoughts of suicide and things come across my brain. If I let them take over, then I wouldn't be here talking to you, and everyone else, so I choose not to let them, and fight them just as you are. I find the positives immediately, being my wife, and children. I couldn't leave them alone, not by choice anyway.

By the sounds of it, your really doing well getting it all out, and leaving the past as memories, and not all trauma. Well done Kay Dee. Hopefully within a couple of months, your down days will be even less and less, as mine are nowadays (thank god).

I thought you might like the pics. Pictures always cheer people up... especially cute ones. My life revolves around that little fella, which is good for me at this point. I intend to grow as he grows, and I guess, we'll both be discovering new emotions along the way. I wouldn't even have the emotional feelings I do now (how limited and small they are at present), if it wasn't for my little fella being born. Having him as also brought me closer to my older son as a consequence, as my emotions build again, I am gaining closer to Logan, my 14 yr old, as I had pushed him aside emotionally due to PTSD. I realise that now, and am fixing that problem also.

You are great Kay... a definate fighter, and very strong person. It sucks that one has to go through these type of things, to make oneself the person they are, or aim to be.