Ok cypher, your doing ok there, but your taking on some things that you just do not own... you first put it on them, then blamed yourself again further down. Lets now pull this apart one at a time so you can relearn the truth to your life, using commonsense and realism to what occurred. You need to fill in the blanks here obviously.

I want you to notice something here cypher, a very important aspect of abuse. Whilst I say to you that you own some aspects here, is because of the short period of time in which things escalated and you could have controlled compared to an abusive relationship, where love and strong emotion is at play, often a slower process of degradation to break the partners self esteem to dependence upon the stronger, allowing them to do anything they want. Your time frame was much shorter than an abusive relationship with a partner, though still does carry and warrant some aspects which need to be dealt with.

Lets start at the beginning and ease you into this one step at a time.

You Let Them Stay With You

Tell me about this first part... everything you can remember please from opening the door... your thoughts, feelings, guilt if any, etc.