Hope

As I began reading this thread my thoughts went in the direction of "Will I ever have peace" in my life. Then I read your list and each item put a bigger smile on my face
and caused me to look at things somewhat differently.

Aside from a few minor irratations I can say that I am at peace. I've been blessed with
having my mom with me. Stressful as it may be--I have her with me. My daughter has come back to me. A gift from God, no doubt!

Life is never perfect and there will always be minor/major problems to tax our coping
skills. If everything was always perfect we would never grow in our emotional strength.

I get stressed, and grumpy, and touchy, and way to sensiive at times. These all help
to remind me of how really peaceful my life is.

The changes in my inner self since diagnosis is amazing. My problems have not gone away. My issues are not gone either. But being aware of WHY I am like I am and why I feel as I do has given me a sense of peace like I have never known. The world around me is not quite as scarey knowing "why" I am scared.

Does this rambling make any sense?