I have my whole life suffered from PTSD, I am 23 and also an diagnosed with Dissociation Disorder. I spent my entire childhood being physically, emotionally and sexually abused. I also suffer from night terrors where i wake up screaming and sometimes it sends me into a full blown anxiety attack. I dissociate on a regular basis, basically i zone out don't remember a thing and loose amounts of time. Its all so horrifying.
Because of everything since i was 12 i have on and off had eating disorders and problems of self mutilation. There are times where i get flash backs where i actually feel like i am being hurt again and see all the traumatic images like they are there in my head on repeat. During those episodes i will bang my head and scratch myself raw and come out of it and not know how i got hurt.
I have just started seeing a new therapist and i just feel like where on earth do i begin, can i even begin to really talk about these things i have suppressed for soo long.