I tried to reply to this and to another thread but they have not shown up. I know they are monitored. I'm probably just impatient or more likely did it wrong.
So anyway, Thank you for your comments. It has been a long time of denial for me. My Wife and my Mother finally convinced my to see a therapist after too many "events" after my heath started to get worse over time do to my injuries.
I hope I get this one right and posted I think I'm going to go to the diary section and tell my tail.

Thanks.