Hi Lacey, I haven't posted my intro yet but you and I have had some very similar experiences. I am glad to hear that you have been able to rise above your challenges and be a good mom to your girls. I have two children too, and caring for them, I believe, has been a big part of my healing process. I think PTSD makes us so aware of how we DON'T want our children to feel, that we work really hard to surround them with love, respect and support. Everything we did not receive. At times, it's almost painful to watch them blossom, and think how we may have responded if the adults in our lives had treated us the same way. However, we cannot change the past, only the future. When I start to feel depression and loneliness take me over, I remind myself that my children know me, love me and want to be with me. And their love is totally unconditional. Your girls don't think you are crazy. See yourself through their eyes, and you will learn to love yourself more and refocus your thoughts away from the events that traumatized you. I think it is a process of reprogramming (at least, this is the conclusion I have come to by myself recently) and having children does give us a very concrete focus to direct our attention towards. It will be a slow process and take all your strenght but you two of the best reasons for working hard at this. Good luck and hope to chat with you sometime.