HI there,

this is my first post and you really grabbed my attention. I had flashbacks for 2 years and I didn't know when they would end. I woke up every night from 2am-4am (the deep sleep when the uncounscious is the most active) and got no sleep at all. In fact, I hated going to bed and would exhaust myself right before falling asleep. On top of it was in a full-time program and working a p/t job. I am really burnt out now and going on the course of self-care that's really badly needed (eliminate emotional stress, etc). So I don't have all the answers, or perhaps even the one answer that suits you.

This is what helped ME (what I told myself): they will finish when you are ready b/c they came when you were ready even you the conciousness weren't fully aware of it. (note: I did have a flashback trigger/circumstance lasting for about 1 1/2 before that). And really, it's just you communicating with you. So be nice. *warning: I also had multiple personalities come out at the same time* I took the time to get to know the person *a younger version of me* and welcome them in my life. It was like learning social skills within myself. I decided early on that since my self was communicating with me directly and at all times of the day when the therapists aren't around, it was really trying to reach me and no one but me could handle it. ((I spent these two years going from therapist to therapist (none of which worked out) and just telling them what I learned about myself the night before. I did all the work and they thought they deserved all the credit!! )) You know best. You have the freedom to decide your course of healing, the one that's suitable for you, b/c you'll be one to know that it's working or not. This is an exciting journey and as a result of going through this process, you'll be able to create a life you've always wanted.

I am now whole in a way that a braid is put back together. All the pieces fit and now it's just figuring out where to go from here and get acquainted with the new whole and take it to the next level.