A few weeks ago I was in training for the job that I started 2 weeks ago. I suffered major anxiety attacks and as a result of that as well as 2 weeks of performing at 150 % I have lost about 7 pounds(the positive side of stress). I once again have realized that I have a hard time with being imperfect and really beat myself up about making mistakes. I move quickly and try to solve the problems with the machines I work with as quickly as possible , resulting in banging into things and getting bruised all over my body. This all stems from what I went thru that caused the PTSD. It is as though I have the abusers with me all the time telling me to move faster, not to make the stupid mistakes I do and to be better. It has gotten to the point that I don't even know where I got the bruises from. I am always afraid that my bosses will see I am not competent. It is almost like I know nothing but anxiety. The biofeedback session is not helping because I am not in the office where the relaxation technique was done. Instead I am on the front lines, as I like to put it. Hopefully it will get better with time. Any advice as to a better perspective?