My nickname is Chari (pronounced Sherry). My very first memory is of being raped by my uncle. The overt sexual abuse continued with my uncle and my father until I was six. The incident that did the most damage happened two days before my sixth birthday. They gave me LSD and took me to a party where they sold me and I was forced to make pornography with adults. A man at the party used a razor blade to carve his name into the skin on my stomach. Several of the women held my down and a bandana was stuffed into my mouth to stifle my screams. I still have the scar, nearly 41 years later. I also have PTSD and major issues with trust. I take psych meds to control negative emotion overload: anger, depression, and fear. I've also studied psychology. I've near completed an MS degree. The coursework is done and my thesis is written, I just have to get through the approval/final revision process yet. I work in mental health and find it helpful to be able to apply all I have learned to listen, to take another's perspective, and to be a positive presence, helping as possible. I want to write a book after I earn my graduate degree. I've got a few good friends and I am close to one of my sisters. My psychiatrist and therapist are both helpful.