dshanks,
Starting and learning a new job is stressful. I remember when I started my current job (eleven years ago), it took a good nine months to be comfortable in my abilities. Even today, there are certain things I am not totally confident in because I just haven't done enough of them. It's unrealisitc to expect perfection and effeciency in a few weeks.
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I once again have realized that I have a hard time with being imperfect and really beat myself up about making mistakes... It is as though I have the abusers with me all the time telling me to move faster, not to make the stupid mistakes I do and to be better...
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This past year it was brought to my attention that I do still carry around old messages I received early in life. Those messages
I give myself now... and for that I am responsible. I am slowly learning to unlearn that behavior. For me, that means acting and thinking the opposite. Easier said than done I must say. Decades of thinking my feelings are unimportant, can be ignored and neglected, minimized, or invalid just doesn't go away overnight.
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I am not in the office where the relaxation technique was done. Instead I am on the front lines...
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dshanks, I don't know anything about biofeedback. I do know anxiety. I do work on the front line. There have been times I have thought I crossed the line between brave and stupid to continue to work there. My symptoms are the result of working there. Yet I continue to work in the ER and face new traumas as I face the ones that haunt me. So, I also know that the relaxation techniques do work even in the least conducive situations. They have really helped me at work. When I am less anxious, I am more focused and less likely to make mistakes.
dshanks, changing thoughts and behaviors isn't easy. I have by no means perfected or mastered it. I am still learning and practicing- over and over and over again. I still have to remind myself I don't have to be perfect at this and settle for what little progress I've made.
Keep pluggin' along dshanks,
tude