Your T was just giving you a boot in the butt. I believe she was pushing you into the next steps. Sometimes we need to be dragged kicking and screaming to face our truths and misconceptions.

The challenge of "do you want to get better" is really a way to prepare you for the tough parts. It's a precurser to a radical move or shift.

Your anger is probably partly caused by fear, frustration, and guilt. Be angry, express it, do some free writing or journalling. Let it pour out, you will be amazed at the pieces that fall out when you are agitated. Some things you are totally unaware of.

It's a good step even though it feels like sh##.

Cindy