This must have been very hard for you to share. Indeed, you have been in a constant state of anxiety, with what looks like no support, and attached to people that have used you and your children in the worse possible way. The people we trust and look to for love, end up hurting us--story of my life also. I really hope,Anewme, that you and your children finally get the support you need and deserve. It's hard, but your kids really need you.

All the best,

cec