Hello,

I joined this site and forum feeling good to find out that what I had been experiencing over the years were ptsd-like symptoms (have only taken diagnostics, not gotten a diagnosis). There was finally sense to the intrusive dreams, the intense response to triggering, the chronic mistrust and the disassociation.

Now, a few weeks after registering, I am stricken to find that I'm not feeling anything at all, though tears rise as I type that. I don't know where to start, what to do.

I'm around people a lot but feel lonely, though interacting is getting somewhat less challenging. Last year, fresh trauma renewed some symptoms that had calmed (overly startle-able, traumatic dreams). I had gotten into a relationship with someone who, as it turned out, had borderline personality disorder with narcissistic tendencies. He was physically violent in such manners as throwing a heavy glass tabletop at met, which struck, and bursting my door off it's frame with me just behind it. I had seven months of T after I got out of that situation.

At the moment, T isn't in my budget. That's why I came here. This nonfeeling thing is a surprise. It seems there are only tears, and nothing else...