Thanks for the replies everyone! Today I had a very good (though a rough) session with my T. We talked about responsibility and I hope I'm begining to understand that we all own our own actions. I still find alot of fault/guilt in myself, but I think we're working closer to something more realistic in terms of the responsibility factor. Again, thanks for all the replies, they bring things up that I had not thought about, or something I could bring up next week, etc... Thanks!