Tahnks mick and tammy... I really feel like taking all that out WAS a good thing I don't want to go back!!! what i am dealing with now is my restless, depresive, angry, bad in genreal feelings... It seems like I know i'm not a bad mother, housekeeper, and significant other but i feel like i am and i tend to let my fellings override what i know. I cant take critisim eithier, that just makes it worse! I cant seem to make it make sense. And what's scareing me is im starting to cut myself i havent told anyone except my best friend because she too has been through this. It really does help take my mind off the emonional pain, when something upsets me i will cut, not enough to really bleed but just leave a mark ive been doing this for about the past 4 or 5 days i'm trying not to give in but i dont know what to do to stop. It really scares me I dont want to die i just dont want to feel........ My arms look like a cat attacked me. no one has said anything i think they know but dont want to cause me to flip out. HELP!!!!!!!!!!