I think my anger is really coming out when she is not doing the job she is performing to the best of her ability....I know........ I would have found one somewhere, for any of my patients.....today feels like i just need to take it slow...I can't hold a thought enough to move forward right now. i just need to recoup from the last couple of months and just move forward.

I am...I am going to......my brother and sister in law work alot, full time no kids, just two dogs) during the week....I now have a pool, sauna and hot tub to use..i prefer when they are working but now I can go whenvever. It was hard to see my brother today....three years...that is a long time. I realiy missed him and he was nice to me today....my Mom tried but I could still feel the anger and dissapointment and that ......well I wanted to leave but I thought.......breathe, you can do this...I did it.....

My son and i spent some time in the hot tub...by the time a came back in ( half hour total) my Mom was gone. My sister in law was very nice......we have NEVER had negative words......I stayed away because of my brothers mouth, not her. i think I might need to either write this out.....maybe have all you guys give an opinion......last time I wrote a heart felt note and sent it....I pissed off....a lot of people....sooooo, totally not my intentions...sorry, rabling.

Anyone have any advice.......i stopped talking to my sister in law ( she really is a nice person...I feel she is abused to a certain degree too) from my brother....they have been together 15 years, we all lived together, a couple of times. Wnen I stopped talking to my brother...it just came along with it because I didn't want to cause waves in their relationship. She is acting like nothing ever happened but I feel a sick feeling......Should I write something to her?