I suddenly feel the urge to look at the forum in a new light as it has been depressing me of late. Sometimes it feels like I am reading complaint after complaint and, while this is not true, I have become to feel that I am clouded by the struggle of the community here.

The sufferers are trying to come to an understanding of themselves and us carers are trying to understand them . It is like being in a classroom of students eager to learn but no-one teacher holding all the knowledge to impart upon us so we can finish our studies and leave. We have to work it out ourselves.

There are times when I really enjoy being here. I enjoy the conversations and then there are times when I feel I walk away feeling that I have not made anyone else feel better having offloaded my crap and other times when the crap of others pulls me down.

I am not sure what I will ultimately get from the forum but I just realised this is the one place I can come and talk about PTSD where people do understand and that is worth everything when dealing with a sufferer

While I may have lost my focus, I am now ready to read between the lines and continue learning about PTSD rather than just reading the struggle.