Hmm, what is my will to power? I'm not certain I've figured it out, yet.

I do know this: I'm terrified of not being able to make new happy memories. I have an extreme fear of death, well, not death itself, but the moment just before death when I realize that my inability to recall my own life has come to fruition. I know that sounds very ironic, but it's true.

I have a strong desire to have memories beyond my trauma and its consequential disabilities.

I hope any of that made sense.

Best,
Rachel