Hi Jetto, it is important not to harm your wife even though you don't recall any of it. You will be giving her PTSD by abusing her. You stated you feel pretty miserable because you have this illness, so why would you go and give it some one else?

Try to find some positive outlets for that anger. Like punching bags, weight lifting etc. Also educate yourself on this illness. There is a plethora of information on anger and other symptoms.

I hope you are seeing a therapist or a doctor. If not, please do so as quickly as possible.

Tammy