Hello,

I just don't know how to trust or let people get really close to me. I know a lot of people and am around them often but still feel isolated. Last night I declined an invitation to a party at a friend's. He is someone I actually feel pretty trusting toward. I stayed home and read a book and cried.

I long to be able to be vulnerable with my *close* friends but I keep most everything inside instead. Sometimes letting my vulnerabilities out does not result in support from my friends. I am part of three online support groups (one for sexual abuse, one for having been with a person with a personality disorder, and this one).

Sometimes when I am feeling really bad I post in order to get support, but even in these support groups, it doesn't always come, which of course makes me feel worse. Sometimes I seem to get one sympathy response because no one else is responding.

This sounds whiny, this post, and like "I, I, I."

Anyone...?