I way laying in bed last night and asked myself the above question.

When I first started with the forum in October of 2006, it was almost an obsession because I found a group of people who understand the insanity that my life had become with PTSD. I felt connected like I hadn't felt in a long time. It was also bittersweet because I had people I loved in my life that wanted to help and undertand, but couldn't. And I had a group of strangers who could. Getting to the point where I could live with this took some time.

I've taken breaks from the forum. Anywhere from a few days, a week or, as in the last time, several months. I understand breaks are necessary or reality gets skewed and life gets even more screwed up. But I still feel this draw to this forum. The only answer I could give myself was that it was a place I felt comfortable being myself. Outside of my home this is a rare thing in my life. I've become very, very good in my life at putting on the necessary mask for whatever situation. Being able to put the mask aside and letting the real Lisa out is such a wonderful thing for me.

The draw I've felt to this forum has gone from something the I needed when things were at their worst to something I now enjoy. With the occasional bad day bringing back the need for people like me.

The idea for this thread has been running through my head for several days. It was brought on by several threads that dealt with the same subject.

Anyone else care to share their reasons they keep coming back?

Lisa