T-light, the best of luck with your surgery. Yes, closeness often feels dangerous. I don't want it to, anymore.

S-Nirvana. Actually, I am friends with myself. I appreciate and am gentle with myself, I enjoy my own company. I just don't enjoy feeling perpetually isolated from others. Sometimes there is a feeling close to trust and closeness with friends, not often.

Thank you for the replies.

What I meant about the sympathy reply is that, sometimes when I come here looking for support and there is none forthcoming, one person will post a reply seemingly out of sympathy.