At the moment I'm fairly obsessive about the forum. Checking it several times a day - for what really?

I think for a long time I've been hoping for the magic piece of the puzzle that will give me the answer to the puzzle of my pain and then I will be set free.

Although I think my obsessive stage is about to end as it is already starting to change for me. Now I know that I can use the forum as a way to obsess over my symptoms or use it as support to get me to face and talk about my trauma. Managing my symptoms now comes second to talking about my trauma.

It has certainly pushed me onto the path of recovery. Along with the therapy. I know that if I just had the therapy I'd probably still be denying and avoiding.

And of course like alot of people have said it's finding kindred spirits when no one else gets it. It also helps me feel less disconnected.