I do understand that he has to want to help himself and I feel that he has taken positive steps in that direction with the counseling. I also understand that regardless of PTSD, he is responsible for his own actions.

I know that he needs my support, but it is very difficult when I feel that I am being treated like a doormat quite often. I have decided to take an assertive stance and let him know what I feel is acceptable and that I am here to support him as much as he needs, but that he must also return some of that by being respectful.

He did return home today with many kind words and talk of growing old together. I can only hope that he is for real this time. He has said similar things over the last 3 years only to take it back days later. The roller coaster is killing me.