I replied to the survey "how many"...too many, I guess.

Sexually molested, physically abused, raped, ignored suicide attempt, emotionally abused (by husband), coerced abortions. They span far too many years.

It's manifested itself in some pretty nasty ways, including physically / biologically in symptoms of MS (the full boat). It's like I fried some circuits. Depression, fogs, cognitive issues, the works.

I only now realize that it's probably PTSD, but I"ve never been diagnosed. I think I'm getting better with some of the things that I"m doing for myself, but it seems like I relapse. Today sucked for instance.

Can I just keep going? Will I get better?

sigh...