I had a string of mutiple traumas over five years ago. But only 12 months ago, It was recognised that I was suffering from PTSD. I also suffer from Manic depression/Bipolar affective disorder, and also psychosis, which I have had since I was 12.

I have been through alot, but thought things were on the up when I was told by my therapist that I might respond from EMDR treatment. I have now had three sessions and am seriously considering about having any more.

Of course, I knew it would be a bumpy road to possible recovery. But I never banked on it taking my therapist 30 minutes to 'pull me out' of the disturbed state I went into. Although I wasn't reliving the trauma, my mind was there and so were my feelings. I was petrified, shaking and crying.It also bought on some of the psychotic symptoms I have only when I am becoming seriously unwell.

I think my memories were too strong for the EMDR, which was why I was sucked back in time. My family who I live with obviously can't stand to see me in this depressed state I have been left in, and are asking me to see sense and not have any more EMDR.I was determined to have more, as I thought I'd be getting back part of me that was lost in the traumas, but now I'm not so sure.

This treatment, so I hear, has only been going for around 10 years, but I wonder if enough research has been done. Can people with psychosis have EMDR? Or would this have happened anyway?I would be so pleased if anyone could offer their views/thoughts/advice/oppinions!!


Many thanks.