Welcome to the forum. I don't know how you do it every day without reliving the shooting over and over. I wonder if your search for action regarding your PTSD is related to your anniversary in a few days. One of the effects of PTSD is feeling isolated and not understood as you will read over and over on this forum.

We have all found common ground to support one another because we understand the symptoms each other is living through and with on a daily basis. Something Anthony said a while back regarding this is that unless you have it how can you understand it. This is a valid point when it comes to discussing strategies to reduce symptoms.

What ways has the PTSD effected your home life and work life? Do you see yourself as totally different person after the event? What major changes have occurred for you in how you handle things socially and professionally?

With more information, we can help you to see or identify points to ponder.

Cindy