A day of muscle spasms in my back kicking my ass all over the place, had to spend most of it on my back. Panic attacks galore, but at least they did not cycle out of control, was able to keep a grip. All expected but well worth it!! I am handling this way better than I expected after my venture out yesterday. OK, I was not able to stand long enough to cook or make a sandwhich, almost drove off the road in pain, cannot get up the stairs to shower and I feel like a vice grip is about to snap my lower back when I try to sit up... But it is still a good day as I remember how I coped out and about lastnight. Of course there would be a bit of a backlash, but I don't care because I did it! Just hope this backlash is short lived because I need to get my sweatry ass up the stairs at some point!!!

Debating getting the movie out again to play with my trigger more and see if it is beat or give myself a break, I probably should just take a break. I don't need to see if I can make this worse.