I am not sure if I decided to start sheltering again because I miss it and wanted to do it again or if it is a way to avoid dealing with my issues. But whatever the reason, I am glad I did.

Seeing my mom cuddle with the babies, listening to them purr and enjoying them is worth it. It has been a long time since I have seen my mom so relaxed and happy and enjoying life. She plays with my grown cats, but it is not the same as playing with the little ones.

Why do I feel like I have a purpose in life now by caring for the kittens and did not feel that way by caring for my mom. I love mom and am caring for her willingly. Our living together was my idea. Guess it is just a different type of feeling.