Hi Cec,

Please give it some time...this forum, or anything else for that matter, is not a quick fix...there is no quick fix with ptsd. For a long time I htought I could handle the symptoms on my own, without therapy etc...And then I got worse and worse...Hang around the forum some more...people here understand...Nobody else really can unless they have ptsd. I know confusion and lack of self identity suck...but hang in there.
Oh...and, welcome to the forum.