I was diagnosed with ptsd several years ago. Even though my symptoms are undeniable (and I dissociate, abuse alcohol and have had an eating disorder) I still fluctuate wildly in how/whether I accept the diagnosis. I have this attitude that my trauma was not "severe enough" to cause ptsd. When I'm being honest about this though, I'll acknowledge that I was traumatized by sexualized spankings from my parents from age 2 to about 12. I have great shame from this. It also contributes to my avoidance of intimacy. Yuk. It's isolating because this is not something I share with people other than, reluctantly, my psychiatrist. I'd appreciate any advice/help.