Well speaking with his doctors is out of the question even though I have called in the past...See he has gotten so bad that in April he assulted me and tried to strangle me during an argument. He is not allowed at the home anymore till July and until I know he is safe to be around me and our children.

The bad thing is he has shut down alot since a court hearing for domestic assult and blames me for everything anymore. Before the court hearing we we given permission by the courts to see each other for marriage couseling which he seemed like he was 100% committed then, that was April until the 15th of May. We were dating and seeing our own individual counselors because I have secondary PTSD , depression as well as PMDD that I am being treated with Zoloft for and counseling.

Anyway, suddenly he seems to be shutting me and the kids off, hardly ever calls our children, does not want to be intimate with me anymore and has been saying he loves me in his head but not in his heart and just a little. I feel like I am on a roller coaster as to our marriage. One day he seems like he wants to be with me, the next he says he does not know what he wants. He goes to work, then to a friends home to read books, watch TV and sleep...that is his life anymore. He does not want to even discuss our finaces or anything concerning the kids or home anymore.....

Is this all part of his PTSD or does he not love us anymore???

I am so sad, yes I am getting better with my treatment, but he seems to be getting worse and shutting himself away more and more...I am not sure what to do anymore or if I should just give up loving him because he does not or is not able to love me back anymore...

Thanks for listening...