I do not talk about this stuff with my parents. My father is dead and my mother couldnt handle it. My stepfather still believes beating a child is the only way to go. A few years ago he said "A child has a fog over its brain that you simply have to beat your way thru.". Sorry I dont believe that. I have no desire to speak to this man about my life.

"A child's mind in an adult body"

Thats funny. I have always felt that way. Strange to hear someone else say it.

I had written a great reply to sunnydaze but it got lost when I tried to post it. That was a couple days ago. I am too lazy to rewrite it. All of the above is the abbreviated version.

Anyway, on to the exciting stuff!
I have been reading your site and doing some researching and WOW! So many things are falling into place. I cant wait to discuss my thoughts with a professional.

I have had powerful episodes of deja vu as far back as I can remember. I had read some years ago how it is a problem with the brain. Misfire of electrical signals etc. This could be part of disassociation disorder. Well I started reading about this disassociation disorder and found one of the manifestations is depersonalization. It sounds very much like what I deal with. Altho so does Brain Fog. Brain fog is probably more accurately what I am suffering. I get the feeling my problems are compounded but at least this is a start. In any order I am excited to begin unraveling this mystery and start to understand what MY world is all about. At the turn of the month I will secure a metal health professional. I just wonder if they will take my guns away.