I have some guilt on and off now - I know that sometimes I let things fall through the cracks at work because I'm dissociated.

In terms of past behaviour, I can see why I acted the way I did and I've mostly forgiven myself for that because I'm making amends for it now. I think part of the moving on from guilt for me is being accountable for past actions. I find it easier to forgive behaviour from the past when it was before I knew what was going on. However, recent behaviour is a bit trickier because now I know what I'm dealing with so there's this feeling that I should be able to control my reactions more.