Wow...this is a fascinating question as I have thought about this...Maybe it's because I'm pessimistic about the future (which is about the trauma, at least in part) but also looking at the way the world is...I somehow reached a conclusion that it'd be irresponsible to bring a child into this world, such as it is, because I would not be able to guarantee its safety or a good enough life...On some levels there is curiosity about having children and maybe even a fraction of awish to have one or two...But I always go by the fact...I didn't ask to be born and when I have those bad days I wish I hadn't...and I wouldn't want my child to potentially have those thoughts...Maybe I'm just rambling...Obviously this is such a personal decision for people, potential parents etc. So...I assume in part it's because of what I went through but also because I'm scared of what the future (whatever that is, and how ever much of it is left) may bring. Maybe it's stupid...but...yeah.

Oh...and...I guess this ties into what I said earlier about safety etc...The idea, at least at this point in time, of me being responsible for the life of a human being (or 2) whose needs would be much greater than mine is absolutely terrifying, especially since I'm having trouble taking care of myself...Of course, if I had someone else maybe it'd be a bit different bu tthen shifting all the responsibility to him would also be irrepsonsible and unfair. Ok...my 2 cents.